I wrote this June 11. It's a little outdated, but I wanted to include it in my life narrative.
For months, I would write in my journal things like:
“I have so many blessings. But all I really want is a nap.”
“When we get to heaven is it just going to be more work? Is this what I have to look forward to forever?”
I started studying passages of scripture that talk about the rest of the Lord, and entering into His rest. I felt like the Lord recognizes that this life is difficult and requires a lot of hard work, and He offers the ultimate prize for the weary: REST.
Well now that school is over, I wake up when I want to, and every morning as my brain “puts on my life” again, I smile. I don’t have anywhere to be. I can spend all day in my house with my children. I have housework to do (I am moving in a week, after all), but I don’t have to do anything for anyone else.
I have a lovely wooden plaque on my wall thanking me for my service to my school community, and now I can rest. And it feels so good.